Good times, bad times, you know I had my share

Yet, another day passes and I’m wondering how do you feel about me? Last night was a real good time and the conversation was good as well. Even if you had a little fun with me at the mall with your comment. I do have to say that you looked great. Sorry, but I couldn’t keep my eyes of you. Have you been eating or did you just stop? Okay, I’ll move on, I wouldn’t want to make my “friend” too uncomfortable.

So, where should we start? Yesterday’s writing seemed to get a lot of people thinking and it left you speechless. I guess talking to you in person isn’t the easiest, but in this type of arena, I tend to really be able to get my point across.

Well, it’s Thursday and I can’t wait to have this extra day off the for the Labor Day holiday. I wish I could start every work week on Tuesday. As for me, I may be going north to see the parents and yes, maybe I’ll get online and let them read about my trials and tribulations. Like I said, I got nothing to hide and everyone is fair game. I realize now at this time of my life, that being honest is the most important thing. I will not hold back on what I to say. If you’re a moron, I will call you out.

This morning on the way in to work, the radio was playing, “if you think your lonely now”, by Bobby Womack. Why is it that every R&B song you hear, most of them you can relate with, when your in love or with a broken heart? Well, anyways, maybe it’s just me.

I can say that this whole experience has taught me a great deal, not only about myself, but really about others. In particularly, women. I mean, I knew women were caring, soft, nurturing, etc. The things I didn’t know, is that women don’t forget real easy. It’s easy for a man to forgive and forget, but women may forgive, but never forget. I think that is a very good quality for one simple reason, they learn from there mistakes. Unlike men, who keep making the same mistake over and over again? Now, I may get some negative feedback from the men who read this, but like I said earlier, get over it. I say this because it has led me to my current state of affairs. See, I want to forgive and forget and be this “new” man for you. I want to be in love with you and not just love you. I thought it was that simple…. Nope, it’s really not. After some discussions and talking with you, I see the damage that has been done and even if an incident has happened years ago, the scar remains. Some people follow this path and swallow there pride, due to the love they have for the other person, but if that feeling continues to fester, it will explode and the aftermath is very tough to deal with. I see the damage I caused, I really do, but unlike most men in my case, I want to at least try and salvage what I can with you. If that means a friendship at first, fine. I realize that I will have to start all over. I understand the fragile nature of this and you did a terrific job in explaining this to me. I want to show you that I have grown mentally and that I can handle an adult relationship. I also understand that your feelings are nothing to be taken for granted. Communication, trust, honesty, and respect are the keys to having that successful relationship. I want you to be able to give me your heart and not have me treat it like hacky sack and in turn I want to give you mine and not have to worry that you’re going to do wrong with it. That was another issue of mine…. Being paranoid. Maybe, it was too many episodes of the “X-files” you know, the whole trust no one thing. Sorry, I’m just sharing.
Let’s just get to the quote for today:

“Love is the attempt to form a friendship inspired by beauty”