well, it's monday again and you still hate me

i guess since i'm writing this it means i made it through the weekend safe and sound....

let's re-cap the weekend's events for those of you who are interested..

Friday - after another super slow day at work, i came home and decided to cut the grass and its a good thing i did when i did, cuz soon after i was done, it rained yet again. so, with the rain, i decided not to wash the car, and go to fred's drive in instead for a chicken dinner. well, after dinner i had to rearrange some furniture, since the cable people were coming on Saturday to hook me up. so, that my Friday night.

Saturday - the morning started off kinda early for me. go figure. i had at&t over at around 9am to install my cable package. goodbye time warner.... so, in the process, the rain had long since stopped and it was car washing time. after the car was washed, i decided to get my clothes together for the wedding i had to attend. i still really didn't feel like going. well, as luck would have it, at&t gone finished at around 2pm and i still hadn't got a gift or a card for this wedding. i was able to get showered, dressed, and arrive at the country club in a timely manner. the ceremony was nice, it was outside and the couple looked really cute together, but during the procession they had some family members reading some poems and that's where i heard the most amazing quote.... it was, "marriages don't fail, people do" man, that was deep and really took my mind on a journey. i almost feel like printing this statement out and making it my creed. i have never heard anything with so much truth in in. i failed you. i failed, and it really hurt.
the dinner was okay, and rest of the proceedings.... blah blah blah. the damn reception was filled with a ton of twenty somethings running around and it was not a very fun environment for me. i decided to come home early around 10:15 ish, but before i could come home, i had to stop at taco bell and grab that 4th meal.... god bless. during that time though, we did get a chance to exchange text messages, but than it just stopped.

Sunday - i awoke early, and was going to spend the day with the nickster... that was fun. we had breakfast and went out driving all over. during the time, nick had told me that we needed to make a gift for one for camp, so after some thought, we picked up a picture frame, some glitter, and some stickers. we came home after a great lunch, thank you mcdonalds. we came home and took a good picture. than i went to work and designed the frame. maybe its not the best, but it turned pretty neat. before you know it was 4pm and you were on your way to get nick. we you showed up, i was really nervous, but that soon turned into sadness, when you didn't bother to acknowledge me at all. well needless to my night sucked due to the events of earlier, but i was kinda happy with the email and text, but that was it. so, i layed around and watched tv till it was time for bed.

and here's monday.............

here's my last thought for the day, on my in here today, i had on heart & soul (chnl 51) and this song by anita baker came on, (no one in the world) and these first two verses just hit me.... enjoy.



"I look back on all those good times we once shared and I must have been blind just to think I'd find someone new one who'd love me better than you"

"Well, it may come as a surprise loneliness has opened my eyes I tried another love I could find still I can't get you out of my mind"

well, i guess i should go

thanks for at least texting me, it was nice to see your message