You can't always get what you want.....

How is it possible that every time you hear an Al Green song, that everything in your life seems good? For instance, one of my favorites is, “I’m still in love with you”….. (Go figure) I think the power of music is not given the credit it’s due. I love music. Music, for me, has shaped my life and helped me through the worst of times. See at 36, I get the benefit of the 70’s, 80’s, 90’s and it still continues. Well, everything, but country. Okay, maybe a one or two songs, but that’s it. The funny part is how many mid 30s white guys can name 5 songs by Jodeci? For the record, I’m not calling anyone out here or comparing races or even stereotyping individuals, so let that debate go. What I’m saying, is about me because I have no idea about you guys and what your likes and dislikes are. I was lucky enough to find a person who shared this love for music more than or just as much as I do. Anyways, I wanted to start this thing off with a different flow today, so I decided to talk about music. The hard part is trying to listen the varieties out there, but yet try to stay current and the other issue is finding a something that is child friendly. See, having an 8 year old son, you really can’t be listening to some of this new school hip hop. I mean its pretty bad when he’s walking around, sayin “hey bay bay” Nope, I don’t wanna hear all that coming out of his mouth, but this is not to say that, “buy you a drank” is any better, but this is where we try to find the happy medium. Myself, I love the old school R&B, old school hip hop, 80’s. It all depends on my mood I guess.

I would be a fool not to address this issue as well, it seems that there are some “haters” for lack of a better term, out there, who wait impatiently everyday for me to bless them with my version of the gospel, as told by yours truly. It seems that what I write is a little too sensitive for some persons. WHY? I’m not asking you to read this. I used this as avenue for one person’s eyes only and she knows who she is. I’m sayin what I have to say and what I want to say. If I’m not being nice about, sorry, I can’t worry about that. I have learned that the world isn’t a very nice place. With that being said, I hear that we have a new subscriber and I don’t wanna be rude, so does anyone have any guesses? I will give you a couple hints…. First hint, “get in my belly” second hint, “white caps”……. The first person to respond with the correct answer will win a lifetime membership to be my exclusive club. (See me for details) I do have to say, that I really like our “newbie” reader, he (oops, another hint) was married and still is, even after his extra circular activities, I guess infidelity did make his marriage stronger. Who would have thought that? Well, welcome my friend.

Movin on, does anyone have big plans for the extended weekend? Sorry, I needed to break up things up a little. Okay, let’s trudge forward. I have a question for you guys, has your life gotten better with age? Oh, I’m sorry; I can’t talk about that with you guys? Please. This is one subject that I can speak about confidently. Personally, I don’t know what it is or what it’s about, but man, I love being with a woman now. Not to say I didn’t before, but now I really take in the moment and enjoy the closeness. Hey for all the men out there, if you think, or feel your lacking in the pleasing of the female, I offer this advice to you…. “You’re satisfaction comes second”. It’s a simple theory if you think about. Sexually it’s harder for woman to achieve that special feeling, than a man. Go ahead, tell I’m full of s**t. The other thing is most women; don’t want a man that they have to “train” in order to make the sex somewhat okay. Women want a man who knows where the man in boat resides. (Sorry, I had to borrow that line from californication), but it’s so true. Also, I’m no therapist and I’m not claiming to be God’s gift to sex, I’m just saying, it takes years, to “get it”. Which is why I asked the original question about age? As for me, I have had my downfalls with the female persuasion, but it has made me so much better. Well, sort of. Allow me to explain. See, I had the instance where I could not “rise” to the occasion once. (Twice) This is not the most flattering thing to talk about, but like I said, I will share anything and everything with you. The first time it happened to me I was younger and didn’t really understand what happened. Oh yeah, guys, why is it when it happens that the woman’s first words are, “is it me?” I think that makes the whole thing that much more demeaning. Not only are you feeling horrible, here before you is a woman ready to share the most intimate of moments, and now she has this feeling of being inadequate. Well, in my case, the first time, the young lady assured me afterward that things were good with us. A week later I was single. Coincidence? I think not. She broke up with me and it sucked. So, from that point forward, I took the vow to myself that this would never happen to me again. And it didn’t………… well, until recently. After years of having this streak in tact and always being “up” at anytime or any place, I had a major slip up. Now, understand that during the “up streak” if you will, there were a few short outings, but I was always to “rise” up. So, when the second time reared its ugly head, it affected me greatly. I mean I know I’m an ass a lot of the times, but I prided myself in my “sex” game. Okay, I still need to work on the intimacy thing, but overall it was a very pleasing experience. At least I thought so. With the second “short coming”, I got real freaked out because I was so scared of what the woman was thinking. And guess what her first words were….. “Is it me?” Damn! Oh yeah, than my second fear was being kicked to the curb and guess what? That happened as well. Damn again! So, I really wanted another chance because I couldn’t or didn’t want to go out like that. Not me, but I did. So much for “coming up big.” (That was pretty funny) This was the last time I was with someone and it kinda sucks, because I really like that part of relationships, friendships, etc. Now a lot of you can laugh and point fingers, but that experience has taught me about, KARMA. I was once like the rest of you and laughed at others when I heard there stories of not “coming up” and look what happened. I have learned through all of this not to tempt or force the hand of karma, because it can strike at the worst moments and leave you in a world of shame.


the quote of the day:

"The difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson."