the power of a kiss........

well, it seems that yesterday's entry was very emotionally driven and tissue worthy also. i hope thats a good thing, but i don't wanna make you cry all the time either. anyways, today's title, " the power of a kiss" is the subject at hand. have you ever wandered if you were a good kisser or not? i know i have because for me, i have found that to be a deal maker or deal breaker. i love to make out, especially with ....... sorry no names. i need to protect the innocent. but for real, who doesn't love kissing someone else (of the opposite sex) DUH! see kissing is a very intimate act and you could consider it the first steps of foreplay. most of us love sex, right? but some of us enjoy the "whole act" and not just gettin right to it. there are so many places on a womans body and as a man, you need to know how to identify these places. hold on now, i'm getting sidetracked here. kissing is the best when you and the other person are really in to it. when passion is added to the kissing equation, that is the ultimate. you know what i mean too. i'm talking about the soft moans, the hands running over one anothers body, and the holding (squeezing) of each other. lets face it, sex is going to be on the menu, but why not sample the appetizers first. okay, let me add this disclaimer, sometimes, due to scheduling, timing, etc you may not have the time to do all of the other stuff and you may need to just get after it. its okay, i understand, but if you the time, take the time. sorry, one other disclaimer here, i don't mean to sexual in content today, but it helps me explain what i'm talking about today. phew. where was i? oh, thats right, taken your time. you would be amazed at the results when you really do and don't think about nothing else but the your partner. heres the weird thing for me, this whole thing has come full circle. allow me to explain. when i was younger (teen years) all i could think about was sex. okay, i still do alot, but kissing and the whole idea of foreplay wasn't my thing. as i have gotten older now, more than ever, the sex is great (at least when i was having it) but the i really enjoyed the kissing and the foreplay is incredible.

okay, i gotta change gears, i'm starting to get a little to hot.

i know after reading alot of my posts, you may think that i find everything in life, pretty much like seeing the glass half full and i do. at 36 and the things i have been through, the only bright spot in my life is when nick is around. i never knew how much an empty house sucked until i experinced it. i mean having to cook dinner for him(i know, a frozen meal isn't dinner, but go along with me) and talking or walking to the gas station for a snack. hell, even seeing there sleeping was very moving for me and its part that i really can't discuss to anyone right now. i know the time will come when he old enough to understand the situation, but having to face him and tell of the things i did, well, it may be the single worst day of my life. yes, i really miss you dominique. more than you can ever imagine, but not having nick there seems to have doubled my grief. so, i talk about things like regret and heartbreak, because i live them everyday. i know sorry will never be enough.

i didn't mean to go off on a tangent, but sometimes feelings get the best of me and my emotions tend to take control.

let me close with a song for today..

the commodores are my pick. the song, "just to be close to you"

i need you to know that just because i'm five minutes away, doesn't mean i don't miss or that i don't love you..


you and nick are my life


edit.....

5:43pm central standard time

this will be my last entry.... it seems that i wasted enough peoples time cryin about a situation that i can't fix. so, in the end, i'm the asshole... (again)

its sucks when you think you have made even a bit of progress and than having the life sucked from within you by a comment, leaving you feel like you just had the most meaningless worthless sex ever....

thanks